Directions and Death
Dream: I keep turning, facing the different directions. East South West North…I face them and feel their domain: Air, Fire, Water, Earth. I find a brown satchel and open it. It has wands in it. There are three groups. The top row is one of the groups, I look at the two groups that make up the bottom row. One group of wands is made from seems to be made from vegetables, some are withered from drying out. The other group of wands are made from the woods of two different plants each. Underneath this set, it says “for herbalist/healers”. One of these wands is part Agrimony and part friend. Funny, I didn’t remember agrimony having a woody part. I start making my own wands on these models. I wonder how exactly I will be able to make the two woods join seamlessly.
Wake: Agrimony makes me think of work issues.* It seems like most people I work with are frustrated with their jobs, me too. I took some agrimony flower essence and kept the bottle in my pocket all day at work. Things seemed to go better, and there was more friendliness too.
Dream: I am thinking about the directions. I am in the summer of my life. When I die I hope it will be like falling asleep, where I feel my senses peeling back from the blackness and inner peace. I remember that feeling. I hope that it is peaceful.
Wake: I was so exhausted last night, I could hardly think. I was aware as I fell asleep. That familiar feeling of letting go, where the senses become dimmer and the quiet and stillness envelope. When you are aware of that moment you have to make the choice to let go. Letting go of control and awareness. It is such a precious transition. It reminds me of death. In the dream I remembered the exact feeling of falling into asleep.
East Air Spring Youth
South Fire Summer Adulthood
West Water Autumn Aging
North Earth Winter Death
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*Incidently the dream job I got this summer did not work out. Within a couple weeks it was obvious that I was in a difficult situation. It seemed so weird that it wouldn’t work out, after all the dreams. But within a couple months I quit and went back to my old job, where they were happy to have me. I was perplexed by this for a long time. Finally I had a dream about it. The dream showed that, while it looked like a spell that brought the job, it was just a coincidence that the agrimony,etc happened at the same time that I got that job. This made me feel less confused, but I am still working through all my employment issues, etc.